Be Grateful

Hello everyone, how are you today?

Making an opening for a post has always been difficult for me. So can I just start it even without an opening? Bah, of course. At least I've greeted you. :p

Well, right now I'm at the end of my last years of high school. Woah time flies so damn fast. It seems if my first day of high school was just yesterday, but you know what? I have just been graduated last week :')

Actually, I want to share some stories about my last year in high school. Too many damn things happen in this freaking year! There are ups and downs of course. But I will tell you more specifically about those stories where I'd really been dropped and upset about life. Those moments when my tears are out of sock and I could not even cry anymore. 

But unfortunately I will not tell you that series of unforunate events. I don't want if this post will be a mellow one :p. I just want to write how those sad stories softly changed myself. Probably as soft as your new teddy bear, eh. They got me thinking about the meaning of life, about growing up, and everything.

Too many things make me realize about the one thing I have to make it better, myelf. Too many things make me realize even when I was down, Allah was always be there for me. He guides me through everything, even when everyone didn't even give me their hand . He strengthen me, even when the condition was getting worse. That's how universe works. One must go through a test that Allah gave, but always believe that He will not give someone a test that they couldn't handle. Then again, that's how universe works. Just believe Him.

Life taught me to be more grateful, for not complaining about our life. Life convinced me that every thing happen for a reason. So, everytime I have to go through a test I will not be sad anymore, otherwise I will bring myself to discover lessons under those tests.

Nah, this post technically still have a relation with my previous post. People change, and so do I. I don't want to be called child or childish anymore. I don't want to stop changing. Even in college, I'm sure there will be more adventorous adventures to come. Just remember that this is the only way to prove everyone that you've grown up. Change.

Let's grow up together!

People Change, and so do I

Hello to the person reading this blog. It's been almost two years since my last post in this blog. But first, sorry for my bad grammar which hasn't really been improved yet, but you have to endure it because I will use it till the end of this post. :p

I haven't posted anything in such a poor place for almost two year. I even have only checked it twice this year. Don't get me wrong, I will not just leave this very poor blog like that. Sometimes I felt like I have to write something again to bring this poor blog coming back to life.

First thing first, I have to get my feel back toward this blog, so I re-read all my previous posts. But you know what? When I read those post I literally let out a gasp. I mean, how could I wrote such a nonsense story, like, is this really me who have written all of that creepy shit? I even deleted some posts which I think it's too embarassing to be published to public. Lucky for you who still have a chance to read them before I deleted it.

But it reminds me that people do change. No matter how hard we deny it, sooner or later, conscious or unconscious, at the end we are not really the person we were in the last year, or last week, or even one minute ago. Rediscovering my previous posts got me thinking that I've changed. It's me absolutely who have written them, yet she isn't exactly me. It's like someone just puts a mirror right in front of me and forces me to look at myself. Oh my! How big myself has changed. It had transitioned so smoothly that I couldn't even notice that. I wasn't a kid like ten years ago, I'm seventeen in this very moment, and there will be a new me in ten years after.

But the point is, you are still you after all. It's not life who changed you, but you who changed your perspective toward life, about the way you see things and people. This post that I thought is good enough maybe will be embarassing if I read it in ten years from now. So don't be afraid to change. You need it because that's the way life guide us to make us more alive.

Woaaah it's too long for my first post. I hope there will be more posts to come. Have a good day!